HUNGRY HIPPO

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When I was growing up, I was afraid to express my feelings. I learnt to depend on a love that was conditional. If I didn't behave, this was how I would be treated. If I disappointed my parents, don't expect to be loved. So I gradually became an escapist. As far as I can remember, I've wanted to be someone else. I wanted to be Taylor Swift, to be Lin-Manuel Miranda, Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez. If I admired someone, I wanted to be them and tried my best to actually be just like them. They put in 10,000 hours of writing? So would I. They're completely honest with their feelings? I could be too. Then Lucas came along. He's loved me with a love I had never known, felt, nor expected, but I'm learning. I feel so special by the way he treats me. I feel like he sees me the way I've always wanted to be. I feel like I am worth so much that for the first time in my life, I don't want to be anyone else. I want to be me, and I want to love him and be loved by him. #love #couple #photobooth

A post shared by Sarah Mei Lyana (@sarahmeilyana) on Jul 8, 2019 at 10:19am PDT